Is It Too Latee.? Did I Do Something Wrong.? What Should I Do. Its KInda long , but i hope you'll still help.?

So theres this boy name Josh. meh && josh been friends since middle school. I was 12 && he was 13 at thee' timee. so in middle school he use too always wait w/ meh after school for mii ride && in the morning when i got drop off at school , he use too always walk meh up thee stairs at school. one day he even put his # in mii phone , but i never did call him. but all of a sudden he stop doing all them things. && start forcing meh too go with his best friend Pat ( who i liked && had a big crush on at the time). so i guess he found out that i liked his Pat. meh && pat was together for the whole school year (9 Months) && meh && josh became cool friends. we started too call each other brother && sisters too. years past"d. so last year i was in the 9th grade && josh transferred to mii skool at the end of the year. && when he saw me he use too always call me lil' Pat. i told him too stop && he did. so one day he came up too me after school he was sayin since pat wasnt around && didnt go too our school we should get together but i told him no. so now this year i'm 16 and josh 17. this school year in the beginnig meh && josh was always flirting. && i knew he had a girlfriend who took classes with me everyday but i didnt care. i decide too tell josh i liked him. so i gave him mii # && we started txtin tht weekend. && he told meh tht he had been liking meh but he didnt know how too tell meh. && i told him that i like'd him too but i didnt think he did so i kept quiet. && he told meh i should've tld him cause he did. keep in mind he never told me he had a girlfriend or i never told him i knew he had one. so i was confuse if he really want'd too beh with meh or not. so a month past && he had a different girlfriend once again he never told me i had too find out on mii own. but he still txt'd meh daily even early in the morning && before he went to slp late at night.&& we still gave each other hugs at school wen his girlfriend wasnt around so i ask him wat i was too him. && he told meh i was "a friend who he gotta a crush on but we jest talk". && i was like awe then he sed he been knowin meh too long for us too rush into a relationship. i respect'd tht causee he had respect for meh && he wasn't jest talkin too meh causee of mii features but for the person i was. but then he started too change. i felt likee he was disrespecting me in front of his friends. like he had meh i wasnt going no where or he had control of meh showin meh off && stuff. so i stop talkin && txtin him. long story short. everytime this happen we use too argue. && he keep on having girlfriends && i felt like im waiting for nothing. he even had sex with one of mii closest friends at school. so he ask meh du i wanna go with him he sed he was ready too beh with meh. but i felt like he was just sayin tht cause he didnt have no one else to go with. so when i sed nawe all three times he asks meh. he stop talkin too meh he wouldnt even look mii way && he was jest walk past meh. && that hurt'd mii feelings alot. i really cared about him alot. && jest beacuse i didnt wanna go with him i didnt know that i 5 year friendship will be ruin cause of it. i txt him && ask him why he dnt mess with meh no more. he was mad causee i didnt wanna go with him. but i told him i didnt wanna go causee i saw he was treatin those girls at school && i cared too musch about him for him too do me the same way. he sed he would never do mii wrong cause meh && him got history and thats why when i told him i liked him in the beginning of the school year he want'd too wait causee he was talkin too girls && he put that on his grandaddy && his C ( he in gang). i believe him nut it still the same we dont speak at all. we don't even look at each other we act like we dont even know each other like we strangers to one another. && im sooo hurt. when i think about it i cry. causee i really care about him && don't wanna lose him as a friend. now i'm confuse and don't know what to do.